epic failure

so yesterday was supposed to be this amazing day. full of excitement and readiness. well that's not how it worked out at all. i work up an hour earlier than my alarm..which i knew was gonna happen..so i get up and get ready for my interviews. the first one was in chino hills for a state disability office...which i was super confident and ready for...then the second one was later in the afternoon for bank of America. well i am out in chino hills looking for the office and trying to find a Starbucks when literally 30 mins before my interview they call me telling me that our lovely governor put up a hiring freeze for state jobs that morning, and that they had just got the call 10 mins before they called me to stop all interviews. so i pretty much drove out to chino hills for nothing. i was so upset. i was really planning on dazzling these people. but i shook it off and drove back home. i wasn't gonna let it get me down enough that it messed me up for the bofa interview. so i go to that...i gotta admit i HATE group interviews, its so dumb...and its alright, i introduced myself in a way that i made all my previous work experience prove how i could work at a bank and do a great job at it. then we got into the group role playing part...i pretty much set up all the three different scenarios for the group to act out. i feel i did good. but i would of been better if the group had been more enthusiastic. idk so we'll see how that one goes.
so i noticed i had a missed call when i had gotten out of the bofa interview. i listen to the voicemail and it was a lady from a different state disability office, saying that she had sent out a letter the day before saying that i had an interview next week for their office...are you kidding me?!...but since the awesome governor put up the hiring freeze i was supposed to disregard the letter now. omg could my day have gotten any worse...of course it did...so i called her back and asked if she might have had an idea of when the freeze might be lifted and she said, "I wish I did." so i told her how i was supposed to have had an interview this morning for the chino hills office. and if it was the same thing that they told me. she confirmed my fears.
so basically when the freeze is lifted...I'll have to go through the same process all over again. they will have to send a letter of interest and I'd have to send the application and everything in all over again. it wouldn't of bothered me that much had it just been one job interview that got cancelled. but to know that it was two interviews...i am so frustrated. it sucks cuz when i told my step dad he was like...wow, you probably would of ended up getting one of those since it was two and not just one. so yeah i hate our governor even more than what i did before.
you know i had everything mapped out. since the day i took those test...i was gonna take the test. if i got response, that was great. then i started getting responses. i got about 6-7. and i didn't get my hopes up about getting responses from those i was just glad that they were showing interest. and then when i got the call last Friday i was ecstatic! i knew my dreams were getting closer to becoming reality....i was gonna get a job, pay off all my debt first, start to save up for like 6 months, while paying mom and mike of course, then move out and probably take my brother with me. so when i got the interview i was so happy and i knew i was that much closer to making my dream come true. then 3o mins before the interview i get the call that not only crushed my dream, but took it from me, beat me with, and then smashed it to little pieces all while i watched in agony. you might call me overly dramatic. but honestly that's how i felt. i was so confident about that interview that i wasn't nervous at all. and I'm ALWAYS nervous when it comes to something that important. yesterday just sucked period. i hope i get some good news back from this bofa job. but if i don't i shouldn't feel too much more disappointment. I've suffered through enough already.