cuz im feeling like i need to be rescued

so lately ive had a few internal battles and ive been doing pretty good at ignoring them or setting them aside to come back to them later. but its hard to deal with when no one understands how i feel. i didnt want to take care of my grandmas house but i did it cuz i felt like i needed to help out. to take some pressure off my aunt and mom. that doesnt mean im having the time of my life up there. its boring and im basically sacraficing my time to do this for them. so far ive only asked for one thing and not once has it been respected. idk i just feel like telling my mom and aunt that i cant do it. but i cant because id have no place to go to. i feel like my stepdad wouldnt want me back there with how moody hes been towards me lately. idk i just wish this situation never happened.