its been a while

well my grandma is home now...yay!!! so glad that she is back where she belongs and we don't have to worry about her. my sister is here too and we are getting along so well.

I've met this really great guy who i really like. things are going well but i keep finding myself over thinking things from time to time. when i am with him everything else just kind of fades away and its always just us two. but he keeps asking me to become official and i really want to but i don't think i am ready yet and when i tell him i still need more time he gets really quiet for a few minutes. the other night he asked me to explain why i wanted to wait i felt like he was getting annoyed with the fact that i couldn't really explain why. but there is just something holding me back from committing. there isn't anyone else that i want i guess i just don't want to be tied down just yet. i don't want anyone but him. i think i just have this certain timeline in my head that i need to follow. to me a month and a half just doesn't seem long enough to have gotten to know one another to become official just yet. i honestly could make him wait another month and a half and then probably be comfortable enough to be his girlfriend. but does that seem too long? i don't know the norm i just know what i feel is right lol i would hate to rush into this and then things not work out. maybe its just a defense thing, but it just seems like the right thing to do.